Fine Again

Yeah, I won't lie. I wanna get high really bad. I start thinking funny when I'm like fiending for a change in my state of mind. It really sucks to stay sober, but at least sober I have a lot of things I can't have when I'm getting high.

Good things about being sober:

• Spend more time with my brother and family.
• Don't need a crutch for everything I do. (not including cigarettes)
• Have a beautiful girlfriend. :)
• No money problems. (any more than anyone else, not that money is very important)
• I can think a little bit more clearer.
• Short-term memory should get better.
• More motivation.
• Less chance of legal issues.

Overall, I think getting clean is a good choice to be made. I feel like my life runs a little smoother when drugs aren't involved in every aspect of my life. Yeah, it feels like I'm dying, but there is a lot more to life than getting high.

I had stayed clean for a good 3 or 4 months when I went to In-Patient Rehab at Bradford. After I was admitted things got pretty tough. When I was released, staying clean felt really good. After a while though I slipped back into my old ways. Before I knew it I was back to chasing that high every day. Some legal issues arose from my use and I began losing the trust of my family and girlfriend again. But I think I have been sober almost a week now and it isn't too bad at all. :) so kids, there is a reason they say "Don't Do Drugs". I only used marijuana on a daily basis, but nevertheless it consumed my entire life and ruined a lot of things for me, my future, and my family. So don't take any chances, you might have an addictive personality and not even know it. I have an extremely addictive personality I see every day. I have also seen what consequences can arise from drug abuse. Drug use and Drug Abuse are two very different things.

Drug Use: recreational use, medicinal use

Drug Abuse: using because you need it to function physically, emotionally, and mentally.

I started smoking reefer because I wanted to experiment and have friends. It wasn't bad for about a year. Then, it became an everyday event more often than not. Before I knew it, I had no relationship with any of my family, I had spent my savings and had no money to spare from my job, I couldn't hold a relationship, barely kept my job, I could do absolutely nothing without the drug and I the things I did have to do I did high. I was a totally different person. Before long, my drug use had elevated to being addicted to Adderall and Loratabs.

Marijuana is definitely one of the least harmful drugs, even less harmful than alcohol in my opinion. Pills and other drugs are a big no-no. Trust me.

So it's not worth it. Be careful and don't lose who you are. And with drugs, you almost always lose yourself.

Peace